The Lost Art of Love Letters

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The other day, I stumbled upon, and love, this excerpt of a love letter between Virginia Woolf and Vita Sackville-West (who also happened to be her muse in writing Orlando):

"I sincerely hope I’ll never fathom you. You’re mystical, serene, intriguing; you enclose such charm within you. The lustre of your presence bewitches me. I like the unreality of your mind; the whole thing is very splendid and voluptuous and absurd. "
  

Change Your Story, or, I <3 NY

The world is a projection of our minds.  

As I write this, I'm on a Greyhound bus on the way back from a lovely weekend in NY (where I got to see the lovely co-writer of this blog!).  

I was invited last-minute by two friends to join them on this trip.  I gladly accepted, always jumping at the chance to visit The Big Apple. 

Saturday afternoon I met up with a NY friend to see a men's cabaret show, complete with a plethora of musical numbers.  In the middle of the first song, this musical theater freak (yours truly) made a decision.  I was no longer going to talk about it.  I was going to move to New York.  Within one year, to be exact.

The music swelled, I drank my wine, I chatted with my lovely friend, and I knew this was where I wanted to be.  

The next morning, I missed my super early bus back to DC, but secretly rejoiced because this meant I had more time to walk around the city.  I sat at a table in front of the hotel, taking in the energy of the city, thrilled to have the whole day ahead of me.

I walked around for a while till I reached the Port Authority to see if I could switch my ticket to a later bus.  I was rolling my duffle bag along the way.  A lady walked by me and said "If I trip over that, you're gonna get punched.  Right in the face."  All of a sudden, the usual routine was set in motion.  The hurt.  How can someone who doesn't know me at all say something like that??  The urge to prove what kind of a person I am. 

Very quickly, my story changed.  What if this isn't my city?  The evidence that shows why I shouldn't move here.  The people who have said, "this city takes a toll on you."

I hadn't heard from my two travel buddies, who were going to travel back to DC separately from me.  I texted them to let me know if they wanted to hang out before they left.  I thanked them again for inviting me on the trip.  I asked if they wouldn't mind throwing my sleeping bag in their trunk so I wouldn't have to lug it around till my bus departure. 

They never responded, so a few hours later I texted them and asked them to confirm that they were alive.  No response.  I called them each a couple of times, knowing that they are usually attached to their phones.  Nothing. 

Again, my story changed.  I started to wonder if they were annoyed that I spent a lot of time with friends other than them on this trip.  I didn't think so, but I couldn't understand the lack of a response.  

I have seen both friends hold a grudge like nobody's business against other people.  I have seen them feed off of each other as they confirm why said grudges should be held.  Maybe now, it was simply my turn.

I began to lament the situation.  Why does this kind of thing always happen to me?  The familiar thought pattern appeared again - "I can only feel okay and safe if no one is mad at me."  A deep rooted, ingrained pattern.

But - the Universe knows what it's doing.  It delivers the same message over and over until you finally get it.

As I sat on the bus, I thought to myself, GET CURIOUS.  If they really are mad, what's it REALLY about?  

It has nothing to do with me.

They've had their own difficult experiences in life that have resulted in them creating a story in their minds about how the world works.  I cannot fix that.  That is their journey.  They may not know it yet, but they can change their story.  

And I can change mine.  

Once I started to get CURIOUS it was clear that whether I am okay and safe DOES NOT depend on others feelings towards me!!!!!  

I get it.

It is possible that the two friends aren't mad and all of this was the result of a couple of lost phone chargers.  Or it could be that my speculations were true.  The delightful point, though, is that it doesn't matter either way. 

And New York is either a magical land or a sea of bitter people.  I get to decide. 

Showtown, U.S.A.

Photo by Caterina Clerici via The Guardian 

The state of Florida is filled with fascinating small towns and tawdry amusements alike.  Traveling along its sun-soaked highways, there are always signs announcing the miles between you and Gatorland, the Magic Kingdom or the Fountain of Youth.

Gibsonton, Florida is just ten miles outside of Tampa, if you drive south on U.S. Highway 41.  It really is surprising that it has never been the subject of a Tim Burton movie (given his appreciation for the landscapes of Florida and circus-style theatrics).  

In the mid-1930s, an eight and a half-foot tall man named Al Tomaini, once billed as The World's Tallest Man, eloped from the circus with his two and a half-foot tall love, Jeanie, who was billed as The Half Girl.  They honeymooned in Niagara Falls, then toured together as The World's Strangest Married Couple.  Upon retiring, they founded a fish camp and nearby cluster of trailers, which would grow into the town of Gibsonton, Florida (called Gibtown by its citizens).  Al was its first fire chief.

Soon Gibsonton blossomed as a community for sideshow performers to spend the winter months or to retire.  The Ringling Brothers' winter headquarters were in nearby Sarasota and besides, you were permitted to keep elephants and dismantled carnival rides (a status symbol) on your front lawn.  Conjoined sisters Daisy and Violet Hilton (of Side Show fame) ran a fruit stand in town.  Perscilla the Monkey Girl, Grady Stiles the Lobster Boy and Edward Anato Hayes the Anatomical Wonder were among those who called it home.   

Photo from BBC via Pinterest

Since freak shows (with a fraught history all their own) are largely a thing of the past, Gibsonton may look like any other small town to travelers along Highway 41.  However, if you stop in, you can still find relics of the town's past, including a museum and plenty of colorful stories from the bartenders at Showtown USA.

The Distant Marvels

A Picture from 1963 Cuba by Henri Cartier-Bresson

Despite the old adage, I'm a sucker for book covers and the Italian press Europa Editions publishes beautifully designed books.

Picture by Marko Metzinger for The New York Times

There's a shelf dedicated to Europa Editions books at the trusty Mid-Manhattan library, which always draws me in.  And so, earlier this week I left with Chantel Acevedo's The Distant Marvels.

It's written in the same spirit as Isabel Allende's Eva Luna, but opens in Cuba in 1963.  As Hurricane Flora approaches, a group of women are evacuated from their homes to the top floor of a former governor's mansion.  Among these women is María Sirena, an eighty-something former lettora, who was once paid to read stories aloud as men worked in cigar factories.  As the storm rages outside, María Sirena spins an epic family saga.

I'm about a third of the way through and particularly love this passage in which María Sirena remembers her daughter:

"I consider her at fifteen, bookish and romantic then, writing poems on broad hibiscus leaves and floating them in the canals behind our apartment.  At eighteen, she fell in love with Mireya Peña's son, Alejandro, a poet, too, and her appetite for him was so crushing that he became all the food she needed; she lost the plumpness in her arms and dark circles shadowed her eyes.  'He is the best poem I've ever written,' she gushed to me one night, and I called her a little fool, and warned her about poets.  I told her a story about a poet, who died facing the sun, and she laughed and called me ridiculous.  She regained herself - her weight, her senses - when she left Alejandro the night before their wedding.  I got my daughter back, but in trade, I lost Mireya's friendship and earned her dagger eyes for the rest of my life."

Non Sequitur Thursday

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